must.not.read.news.

the depression and pain got weird this week. reading about social security going up in smoke and o'reilly and his madness just sort of overwhelmed me.

we had two moving companies come by already and in ten minutes i expect another one. the cost of moving to new zealand seems overwhelming, but less so than staying here. i hate this situation.

went to hear a speaker on texans for medical marijuana at the local universalist unitarian church in austin. it came to my notice due to an email i had sent to me by an ex-journalism student i knew in long beach. we almost co-edited the paper together, but the sexy-boi and i moved back to san francisco thus giving up power and prestige at the local community college. when we turned our back on me co-editing the paper, and us building and maintaining the website for the smart-ass fraternity who knew where we would end up?

me a fibromyalgic housewife and he the webmaster for the supercomputing department of a huge south-west university.

i read about the media manipulation going on with o'reilly and rumsfeld and all of it and it makes me want to get a billion dollars of my own in order to start my own cable news company. let us use lies and flash just as much as the right-wing does! it sells! people love it! even people i know who hate it can't seem to turn it off!

perhaps in new zealand i can actually convince myself journalism means something. because other than project censored, i find it very hard to motivate to believe anything most journalists write.