not hst, no. not hst.

he meant the world to me and i wanted to some day impress him with my writing or my music or something. and instead he shoots his head off.

it does not seem like anything i would expect of him. not having read his writing of the past 40 years. so why?

i barely write in this because it all seems so worthless. the hacks just keep getting more virulent.

but hst? no, he should not show me this path to get away...